… in each and every moment.
Is it attainable? With a lot of work, absolutely.
I feel as though I have a lot of distractions away from myself, a lot of competing demands, a lot of voices telling me what I should be doing, attaining, being, thinking, making, taking, giving, living, watching, fearing, hearing, seeing, feeling, having, owning, buying and all the rest of it. The work of it is learning to say no to those demands. And figuring out how to say yes to myself.
For me, this has required a lot of grace extended towards myself. It has meant allowing myself to be who I am without judgement. I try to practice this presence to myself every day. I fail a lot.
When I go for a walk. I try to just go for a walk. I pull myself back to myself again and again. This is hard for me to do because my mind is continually scanning for what might be coming next even on a walk around my own neighborhood.
But I pull my attention back to myself again and again as I walk.
The other day. I saw a bird in front of my house. It had something in its beak. Maybe it was going to take it back to build its nest.
If I had not been in a mode of slowing down, I think I would have missed seeing that bird. And then I would not have had that bird in my mind as I sat down to write this post.
If I had not slowed down to observe the bird, would the bird still exist? Would it still have built its nest if I hadn’t seen in? Probably.
But I will never know.
And so I’m glad that I slowed down, that I came back to myself to observe the bird, building its home. Now the bird lives in my head.
And on this post.
And this is what I mean by having it all.
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